My Life’s Story

 

Once, not too long ago, I found my life in serious circumstances. Literally, life and death swung in the balance. To anyone who has said to himself, ‘so this is how ends’; knows exactly what I mean. For those of you who have lived through any natural disaster, who had time to prepare for the end, understand my point of view.

Did you run for your life, while people around you prayed and cried? I did, I have and I lived. But not because of anything I did. There was a stranger, who came out of nowhere and saved my life by putting his life on the line. He died saving me. When I woke up I cried. How could it be that I cried for joy and regret at the same time? How could it be, I was so full of life and so empty at the same time? Then my silent and unspoken prayer was answered, the unimaginable really happened. I found out, this stranger was alive; he didn’t die!

Now my life’s quest was really simple, find this man and thank him. Do whatever it takes, find him and thank him and one day, not too long ago this also happened. As I stood in the glow of his presence, I could feel the strength and courage of his purpose, as in that moment not so long ago, when everything of his was put aside and he saved me. It was all so clear, I didn’t know what to say, so I said it anyway, ‘what do you want, what can I do for you’? What he said was astonishing, “I want you to love the world and all its peoples with the same love, compassion and adoration you feel for me right now”! Without thinking, I said, ‘I don’t know how to do this’. He said, “Yes you do, just try.”

 

If you want something you never had, you must do something you never did.

Fear and Joy in the Lord

 

For me, the biblical view is paradoxical out of necessity. Not because it is blatantly contradictory, which it is sometimes, but more to the point it brings many meanings to mind, great and small, penetrating and at times whimsical. Ask yourself, how could the truth be understood? It is obvious and self evident because it is the truth.

The truth appeals to everyone’s best intentions, highest ideals, and is the most sought after goal. The truth speaks to every aspect of the human experience regardless of the human experience. Jesus taught in parables, poets and song writers in metaphors and analogies, leaving the truth hidden in the inspiration of the moment. If its true and it is, God uses our unique life histories to bring us close to Him, then the truth must be draw on the experiences broader than our own; again the delightful web of paradox.

 

For me this paradox is found in the moment a soldier realizes all the things in life which are worth dying for are all the same things in life which are worth living for. Understanding our intent is not to redefine the words, but to refine the knowledge. Yet the biblical lens demands a distinctive portal and a focused vision. So God doesn’t help the ones who need the most hope; God hopes the ones who need the most help, for God’s hope is for sure and for certain. We don’t struggle with belief and unbelief; we are conflicted between belief and obedience. The world is not divided between good and evil, evil is the absence of good not the opposite of it. Can it be, we seek God until He finds us? God’s grace and unconditional love has been given to us without measure, yet in the moment of self realization we simultaneously receive and accept His gifts. Every one believes in the Lord, the question becomes do you trust in the Lord.

 

My brothers and sisters in Christ, you have spoken to my heart and now I will speak from my heart. There is no greater joy in this world than the fear of the Lord. From the Old Testament witnesses to the Holy Twelve who followed Jesus in fear and awe; all who glimpsed His majesty trembled in fear and cried for joy. To experience the presence of His power, to know in that moment the splendor of His creation, to realize our place in His design is as fearful as it is joyous; a joy which began before time, is now and will forever be. The mighty hand of the Lord lifts us as it stretches out over us. The cosmos exploded from His law into the laws of physics and we were there. He made us as His creation, in His creation and we were there. We were made to yield to His power and to be His power.

What’s it like to be an Evangelical Catholic

 

One good example is the love of the game. I love great athletes. It doesn’t matter if it’s Jim Thorpe, Jesse Owens, Billy Jean King, John Elway or Seabiscuit. It’s not the sport any more than it’s the religion. That is to say, it’s the goodness they bring to the table, the heart of a champion, the will, the power and the love of their game. In the same way, it’s not the denomination, but the love of the Lord, the searching, the yearning to stand in His shadow. Everyone stands in the prelude of faith, so to speak, no matter how deep or penetrating the devotion and conviction may be, we are all somewhere on the learning curve.

Actually, Seabiscuit is the best example. Great strength and stamina, the will to win, competitive on a razor edge, focused and directed as if spent by God. Yet meek and humble enough to be trained, controlled and driven by a more powerful source than his own. The horse was not beaten into submission, but willing follow the lead of his master. The riding crop did not beat the horse to victory, it was his signal, it heralded the moment, the mystical moment had arrived, now break to the open lane and run like the wind. Seabiscuit responded, of course he did, this was the moment his life had prepared him for; reckless abandonment and prefect planning were one in the same. The trophy was not for certain but the victory was.

So it is in this spirit I bring the good news to you. The love of the Lord, the deposit of the Faith, fully given, richly rewarded. One Christ without division or confusion; one breath fully alive; a mission without end; one unique moment just like each unique moment which came before it and each moment which followed it. One God One Religion.

prayer for forgiveness

Before I bring my confessions and petitions, I present my gratitude and praise to you Eternal Father, Christ Jesus and Holy Spirit. Thank you for this glorious life, thank you for leading me, guiding me through this world of strife and temptations. Thank you for helping me in all things and in all ways.

You know all the things I have done and the things I have failed to do. I am praying now, you forgive me of all my sins, known and unknown, actions and thoughts which were not pleasing to you. Forgive me for the things I hold in my heart which are unholy, forgive me for my fantasies, moments of anger and the dread of fear, anxieties and depression. I pray that everything I do from this moment, increases the faith, love, and trust I have in you.

Forgive me Lord for the pain and confusion I have caused in others people’s lives. Console them with the same consolation I receive from you. Heal their hearts and cleanse their souls.

In the name of Jesus Christ, I renounce all unholy spirits, all unrighteous thoughts, all thoughtless reactions and deeds. I want only to live in your presence Lord, following your will. Make my life a blessing for everyone. AMEM